loneliness - part 2

i reach out
amongst the hysterical laughter
and come up empty.
smiles slip through my fingers
and drift away
to a forbidden place.
i clutch,
clawing desperately.
but the musics flit away.
i walk through the crowds
without touching.
and the tears fall
like scorching rain on a frozen lake.
i wake up in a strange bed.
bereft.